What is happening to the Black Males today. I remember when I was in summer school and there was an article on relationships between the Black Male and the Black Female. I said then and it has come to be correct. We as Black men have become a dinosaur.  Either we are placed in prison or we kill each other over a color. 

We as Black males have to decide if we are going to fight for our rights that is stated by law. When we do we are label as a Black with an attitude. That we are out of control and is really difficult to deal with by others.  We have to decide if we are going to change in order to support our family. I have been placed in this position. I was fired from a job because I spoke out and it cost my job. I have been Blackballed and I might lose my home. One of the adminstrators told a future employer if she hired me that she will no longer get referrals from the state. This caused me to go into depression and feeling that I cannot provide support for my family.

I do not understand why the ones that are trying to do what is right appear to be the ones that has to suffer. While the Whites that has gotten into trouble still works for the agency.  What is this saying are Black Males expendable  and can be treated in any way just because we are Black, The sad part is no one that can make changes gives a dam. We were told as children that we must be strong and God does not give you more than you can handle. We are constant fighting for what we believe is right. Do our families have to suffer because we are fighting the system. A system that appear does not care as to what happens to us as Black Males.

Today I am cooking and serving a pancake breakfast with the Lions Club in our community. This is something I have been doing for the past 3 years. As the only Black member of the Lions in our community (there are only about 3 Black families in the whole county!) I stand out as well as believe I have a duty to bring understanding to the predominately older whites I work with and serve. Sometimes it can be really hard.

You see, basically these people are cowards. Chicken!

They won't or can't face the facts that they discriminate against me over and over again. In little ways, you know. Like the time I worked hard on the fair board only to have my name be the only one NOT included on the list of those who volunteered. I was pissed. I also bitched about it and got an insincere applology from the culprit.

I love living where I do. I love the rural atmosphere and the beauty of the surrounding wilderness. But, I get sick of the discrimination. Like we all do.

ECH

2005 was a crappy year and I am glad it will soon be over. There have been few bright spots to hang on to.

I am in a fight for my career with the State of Washington that started last January. Dang, has it been a year already? Keep posted for more info about it, I am not sure how detailed I want to get.

Anyway, 2006 has GOT to be better!

~ ECH